Guided Response Clay Jensen

So far I have come to this conclusion that Clay is genuinely a kind and loving person. Or just simply curious which is why he is following her map and tapes. I would be a little bit weirded out if I received a box full of tapes regarding the death of someone I cared about. I think Clay is in a very emotional state and just wants to find out what made Hannah Baker choose suicide over life. I would also want to know if I was in his particular situation as well. As I was reading all of the places she had gone and people she had seen Clay is expierencing for the first time. I can't say that if I was given a box of tapes from someone who I thought I cared about or even so much as wanted to date that I wouldn't listen and then eventually I would want to follow and go to those places because it's the last place the person I cared about went. Or even if they loved that particular spot then I would feel like their presence is almost there, like I was getting to see them for the last time. I really do have compassion for Clay because I haven't met too many people who would just drop whatever it is that their doing and go on a hunt to all the places that influeneced her decision. I am already finished with the book and I am very pleased with the life lesson Clay learned from all of this.

Thirteen Reason Why (Guided Response)

I can't even begin to describe my thoughts on Hannah's story. Typically when you read of someone committing suicide the people that person came in contact with some way or the other never really expects to get tapes in the mail and maps placed near or around their lockers. In a way I feel kind of angry about the tapes because if you felt close to the friend that this happened to, and all of a sudden you figure out your part of the reason, I would feel solely responsible even though other people were mentioned I would keep thinking "Why couldn't they come to me?" or "Why wouldn't they just have said something at that time?" On the other hand some of her friends might find it reassurring in a way that I was at least getting some kind of explaination instead of always wondering "Why?" Some people aren't as strong as others and when you put them into a category as to why you did this horrendous act to end your life, that is a very powerful situation. Their maybe tons of people on the list but to some they may only see themselves and may feel they need to end their life as well to make up for their friends loss. So in one way you could end up having more suicides on your hands or you could be shedding somekind of closure on the horrifying act, that's when you take a risk. If one of my friends or someone I had come in contact with and knew fairly well all of a sudden one day decided to kill themselves I would feel hurt, pain, and responsibility. I feel once you become friends with someone you owe them the comfort of being able to come to you for support and conversation. So if my friend didn't come and talk to me and one day I see a box delivered at my house with tapes inside with her voice on it, first I would completely freak out and think I was being haunted and two I wouldn't know what to expect because you just can't prepare yourself for something like this to come along. I don't really know what to expect next but I guess that's the whole point. I'm very intrigued with this book!

Breaking Dawn

I absolutely love this book beyond any other book I have read this year. I started reading Breaking Dawn last month and can't seem to put it down. Edward and Bella are finally at the point I have been waiting for. They are getting married with all of their family and friends around not to mention graduating high school and going "off to college" when really Bella is finally going to become the vampire she so desperately has wanted to be since she fell in love with Edward. I find this particular scenerio to be extremely intimate. Something about the way Edward looks, speaks, and touches Bella is something I feel every girl is looking for in a man of their own. There's such a bond between the two of them that most people are experiencing it for the first time. Which is why I feel so many people are drawn to Stephanie Meyers Twilight books. I have been in several different relationships none of which were perfect but what I think I was missing is that bond. Stephanie really portrays the perfect connection with a man through Edward. The protectivness is a huge brownie point  on my side, when you feel safe is when you are free to be who you are. Trust was another big factor in this book between Edward and Bella, for the simple fact that no one knew about the vampires except Bella and the select few warewolves. I can't wait to keep reading and see what happens, the suspense is driving me crazy.